Desperado

It's Tuesday, July 23, 1991 - Ohtawara-shi (Ohtawara City), Tochigi-ken (Tochigi Prefecture), Japan. You regular readers already have a pretty good idea of the location... but here is where I'm at today:

I'm up at 7AM, shower and get dressed quickly and ride 20 minutes out to my ex-girlfriend - but friend with benefits, Ashley's place in Nishinasuno-machi (Nishisnasuno Town). It feels like it's an hour-long trek, as I'm very much down today.

Arriving at 8:30AM, we load up our bicycles with her luggage and go back inside her dark, little apartment. She's heading back home to Augusta, Georgia for a vacation.

We kiss... kiss like we never stopped loving one another. At least that what it feels like to me. I wonder... I wish...

We ride slowly out to the nearby train station - dammit, but it's hot out today! I assume Georgia is as hot as Tochigi-ken is today.

I give her a short hug and she me. We both turn away to avoid crying in front of each other... at least that's why I turn away.

As I leave the train station... I feel sad... and as I get further away... I feel less sad. I'll miss her though, but I know I'll survive.

At home (and Ohtawara is my home!) I watch some television and then go to the Ohtawara Board of Education to do some work for AJET (The Association for Japan Exchange & Teaching)—it's just some welcome information for the newcomers to our Prefecture later this month. I'm the writer, I put it together.

Matthew comes by the office at 2:30, and we head out for lunch at Mosburger—one of the very few food-related things I miss about Japan... I live in Toronto, a very cosmopolitan city... we can get any food we want... just not this fastfood-franchises great cuisine!). Back at my place we watch some videos and then head out to Matsuri, a wonderful restaurant located just below our favourite drinking establishment, The 4C.

I guess Matthew knows I'm a tad down today and buys me dinner - a very expensive one at that, but I'm still not going to sleep with him. Just kidding. I'm kidding about the kidding. Hey! How about those Bears?! And other manly things!

I tell you folks... through all of my ups and downs with Japan—actually, it was all woman related, so I guess it really has nothing to do with Japan - Matthew has been there for me. To prop me up so I don't choke on my own vomit after a great night out having a couple of drinks.

Tonight, we chill.

We rent the movies FX and Rebel Without A Cause. We watch FX at his place with his girlfriend Takako... until 11PM, when I get the idea I should leave.

So I ride home (five minutes or so?) and watch Rebel until 1:30AM.

God, but I'm so effin' tired. Maybe I'm bored? Maybe I enjoy it better when my life is in total chaos? I wish I had some chaos!

My friend John from Toronto is coming this weekend. Plus there all those newcomers (WOMEN!) arriving next Monday - more options for Andrew! Horray for me!


Somewhere not being careful what I wish for,
Andrew Joseph 
Today's blog title is by The Eageles: FLYAWAY.
PS: Ashley had a boyfriend back in the U.S. before coming here to Japan. Did they break up? Yes. Even though Ashley and I met and were an item on our second day in the country. Was I worried that she would hook up with her ex while at home? Nope. I'm pretty sure she might get hit on by him... but she is a year-older and much more globally-experienced.
PPS: Besides... once they've had BROWN they always come 'round.
PPPS: Not sure HOW original that is, but I came up with it on my own back in 1990 the first time Ashely got back after breaking up with me. Ego... thy name is Andrew.