I Can't Stand Losing You

Originally entitled: The Girl's High School, there's probably a very good reason why I never published this before. Still, it'll give you a bit of insight into my mind back in there during my third-year in Ohtawara-shi, Tochigi-ken, Japan.

Geez... when did they develop breasts?

Man... is every girl at the Ohtawara Girl's High School a babe, or what? Why can't I teach at this school? Ashley did for those first two years - including more of a daily thing at the Boys High School... but now that she's gone home, I don't think they have added a replacement. If they did, I don't know about it - and believe you, I would - especially if it was an another female AET (Assistant English Teacher) on the JET (Japan Exchange & Teaching) Programme.

Huh... it's probably a good thing I don't teach at the Girl's High School. Half the graduating class would be pregnant.

Naw. That's just guy talk. You'd like to an adll, but I know I shouldn't... I hope.

I'm not like one of those guys on the JET Programme, whom I heard through the grapevine, that was sleeping with one of his female students. Bizarre. It's like they'll let anybody into JET. Maybe they should have a morality check. I mean, what about that new guy - Julius Johnson Magic Irving (obviously not his real name, but I'll tell you more about him in another blog soon). But, I digress.

Whenever I ride my bike past the Girl's High School, I do so with my head down. It's not so much that I don't want to see them or talk to them. It's just that I don't want it to look like I am 'checking out' the babes. I know there's a 10-year age difference, and by the time I get out of jail, they'd be 30 relative to my 40! Just kidding.

Maybe they think I'm a snob. I hope not. I just don't want to... maybe I'm afraid. Afraid of my own moral fiber (do I have one?). Naw. Maybe I'm just shy and don't want to be bugged. But I do like being bugged. It makes me feel needed.

But, I guess being looked upon as a pervert would dissipate my enthusiasm. Best not to look.

They sure do look cute, though.

Somewhere riding my bicycle into the back of a parked white car,
Andrew Joseph
Today's title is from the Police - which is what would be involved should I think about dabbling in the female high school population. The reason I chose this title, is a single line contained within: 'You can call it a lack of confidence'. It's not about confidence in getting away with something - it's about a lack of confidence in being that good person that is well liked. It's all I ever want(ed). Still do, and I can't stand losing: CLASS IS IN.